Song Details
- Album Release Date: 2012
- Genre: industrial
Song Meaning of “Trastorno” by C-Lekktor
Verse 1
I feel a wave of despair coming over me
It’s like a cold winter’s freeze setting in the sea
A downward spiral is consuming me whole
And I can’t seem to break away, it’s an endless cycle
This verse paints a dark and depressing portrait of the singer being consumed by the overwhelming despair they feel, creating an unstoppable cycle of negativity. The imagery of a powerful wave coming over them is a metaphor for the weight of the pain they are carrying.
Chorus
My heart is broken and I’m under a trastorno
Afraid to live the life I once held on to
I’m trying to keep it together, yet I’m falling apart
And I can no longer keep my head above the dark
The chorus provides another metaphor for the singer’s aching hopelessness. They describe themselves as being “under a trastorno,” Spanish for “disturbance,” emphasizing the internal struggle they are trying to hide from the outside world. The reference to holding onto “the life [they] once held on to” hints at the loss they have recently experienced, and their inability to keep their head above the weathering despair.
Verse 2
I’m held captive by an invisible force
It’s pulling me down, my mind’s in a trance
Gone are the days of inner strength and light
And I can’t seem to face each night without a fight
The invisible force represents the hold despair has taken over the singer. It is slowly and subtly consuming their entire being, with no one seeming to notice the toll its take on their mental health. The singer is resigned to a life of darkness and nightly battles in their quest to find a way out.
Bridge
I’m locked down in this sober mind
Living in a state of paranoia all the time
I feel like nothing will ever change
I’m trying to remain, but I’m always in danger
The bridge brings a sense of finality to the singer’s plight. They are entrenched in the state of hopelessness and fear they have found themselves in, and there seems to be no way out. The fear of potential danger has taken over their life, and the singer is barely holding on to the last scraps of their sanity.